Obviously after my last post I have been a little nervous about the response I would receive barfing my emotional history all over the internet for all to read, including the people who were directly involved (aside from myself). I am so amazed at the messages I have received from my friends and family full of encouragement, support, and a more than a few Way To Go’s (thanks bitches..I loves ya!)
I admit that posting that felt wonderful. After I wrote it, my cursor hovered over the upload button for a few shaky panic filled seconds before I finally just said FUCK IT! and hit the button. I decided at that moment that this was not the end, but the beginning of something wonderful and I can’t wait to see what it is. I have been emboldened with a sense of confidence and it feels great! Never again will I worry about what those who don’t matter think. From now on I promise to think with my brain before my heart because I think my heart needs a little bit more protection than I have given it in the past (not talking about the cheese and ham filled delicious chicken I ate for dinner!).
Aside from the help of my close friends and family I have found a sort of peace browsing other blogs on WordPress. Reading (sometimes crying) my way through other peoples struggles of pain, loss and rejection has helped me feel less alone. I have found comfort and a sense of camaraderie in the beautifully written words of some wonderfully strong women: some who have been dealing with these feeling for sometime and some who are at the very beginning of their struggle. I want to thank these faceless wonder women of the internet for sharing your stories with me. For helping me and countless others feel less alone and less afraid. I know my journey is far from over, but the view from where I am right now is magnificent! I am so happy that you are all here with me for the ride through the rest of this beautiful thing we call life.
xoxo JV JL KB MM SA SS CC JH EL KO MC RH and many many more. I love you all for your support ❤